Saturday, July 26, 2008

Never Forsaken

I have tried for so long to forget about it.

Did all I could to just avoid it.

Wasting all my time ignoring it.

Each time I would end up lonely,

using all my chances , but you.

I didnt want to admit,

that your love is what i lacked.

Ive tried to drown my sorrows,

always waking up emptier than before.

Ive tried to hide in a cloud of smoke,

but still your convictions reached the depths of me.

Every effort I made, you matched, only better.

I just dont understand.....

Why did you chose me, when there are others better?

why was i so important that you devoted yourself to my cause?

Im at the bottom of this well of life,

the only way to go is up from here.

So now Lord, I surrender all to you.

for if you care that much for me,

you must be worth it.

(C)1997 Jeff Bray

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Painters Masterpiece

Nighttime falls upon his room,

the sun hides his face.

Once again he returns to slumber,

as if he were a painters masterpiece.

Forgotten are all the days wrongdoings,

you could almost see the halo over his head.

While protectors from the Lord surround where he lies,

with a whisper they bring pleasant dreams to his mind.

Keeping a watchful eye over his soul,

until night turns to morning light.

(C)1997 Jeff Bray

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I Corinthinas 10:13

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

New International Version

Friday, July 11, 2008

Within The Lattice

Taking a walk on a winters morn,
I see a light up the road.
Walking up to a window,
I brush away the frost.

Outside in the cold,
Looking thru this lattice,
I see a family filled with joy.

Each one has a smile and a glow,
as if there wasnt a care in the world.

The father sits in the center of the room, pipe in mouth.
Mother stands close beside, hand on shoulder.
Two children laughing and playing, halos over head.
All in front of a roaring fire.

At the feet of father lies a puppy,
steadily wagging its tail,
even he seems to smile.

There is a warmth here,
But it isnt from the fire.

As I stand feet in the snow,
I feel a tear run down my cheek.
Rubbing my nose on my sleeve I turn away.
Yet, something inside causes me to glance again.

Looking again upon that picture of peace,
Thru this lattice on a cold winters morn,
I cant help feel lost and lonely.

Where is the love in my life?

Where is the joy that was promised?

Why cant I get into that room?

I knock....but no one listens.
I cry...they dont hear my words.
It empties me to feel my pain unnoticed.

Why cant they understand?

Why wont they open up the door?

Even the window would suffice,
Just to feel a little of the warmth on my face,
to dry these tears of mine.

Oh, for just one minute in that home,
to feel the Arms of Love around me.
I could carry it for a lifetime,
all I ask for is a chance.

A chance to feel be loved,
to be wanted and accepted.
I want the warmth of a family around me,
to have the love envelope me,
so that I drown in the feelings that would surround me.

Lord, why does it have to be this way?
Why am I out here with them inside?
Can I receive this gift?

If so: when, how where does it lie?

All I ask for is one minute,
For all that my heart desires,
lies within the lattice.

(C)1997 Jeff Bray

Thursday, July 10, 2008

"Quote #1"

"If the devil can get you to regret your past and worry about your future, then hes defeated you for today."

--Rev. John Asher
a repeated saying he used in his sermons. He was my Youth Pastor in California back in 1993-6.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Those He Seeks

Under the coverage of night he prowls,
Masquerading as an angel of light.
Lurking through the shadows, seeking one to devour.

For his prey has no face, no earthly value.

Is it the one who strives to take up a stance,
the man who dares to confront face to face?
Or is it the one who cowers at a firm hand?

Some may say it is the week and lowly,
the ones who dont stand a chance.
But what is weak and lowly to someone who is seeking power?

Others say it is the evil ones he seeks,
Those already doing his bidding.
Yet, what good is winning an ally when it is good that opposes?

No, it is the good ones he seeks out:
The man who loves his wife
The young lady who values her virtue
The sinner returned to Christ

Those, my friend, are the prey of this faceless foe.

He does not need to win those hes already won!
He does not need to push those already on the ground.

But the ones who hold tight to the word of Glod,
Who can overturn the strongholds of the enemy,
are the ones he longs to conquer.

(C)2000 Jeff Bray

Tuesday, July 8, 2008


If I promise to show the way,
Tell me which way would i go?
If I could give all my love,
Who would be there to help it grow?
If I had the whole world in the palm of my hands,
I'd have nothing without you.

If I could sail the seven seas,
which star would I steer by?
If there was no such thing as pain,
who'd be there to hear me cry?
I could have all the money in the world,
But I'd still have nothing without you!

I could climb the highest mountains,
But who'd ever know?
I could capture the rainbow, moon and stars,
And still have nothing to show.
Even if I could be worshiped as a king, Lord,
You know I'd have nothing without you!!

(C)1997 Jeff Bray

What its all about...

Ive been meaning forever to have some outlet for my past and present writings. Whether it be a random thought, a well spoken verse Ive heard somewhere, or a poem I have written. I hope you get something out of this. I hope that the LORD speaks to your heart and uplifts you or consoles you right where you are at.